alright the mid years are finally over. what a horrendous disgustingly tedious week i swear. by the time physics was over, i gave up on maths already. haha.. whooo! whatever yongwen can go ahead and say that i'm a fake but i dun think i'll do well anyway. i guess the more fake one is yw. wahahaha..
alright. gomez must be in germany now enjoying the world cup atmosphere. damn he's a lucky guy. argh.. thats soooooo not fair. rAwR! gomez i hope you bought something back for all of us! wahaha hint hint hint.
i dunno what some people are up to. one minute everything seems fine, the next minute everything just gets slapped away. oh well, maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe i am getting too sensitive. whatever. i'm tired of this 'game'? if thats what you call it.
alright off to bed.
Zzzzzzz...
i hate my sorethroat. its hell i tell you.
not funnaye.
i cant drink i cant eat i cant talk. i swear those who hate noise will totally love me now. wahahaha..
did i ever say that i hate conflict. especially someplace close to you. i wish it'll go away. please go away soon.
i cannot take this anymore. its frustrating when you have to keep worrying, keep thinking, keep wondering about issues - the SAME issues over and over and over again. maybe i AM to sensitive, like cy said. but seriously. everything is just happening at the same time i'm gonna lose it and crack.
bad things do happen in your life. losing a friend especially. its not right. just not right. i duuno if i'm doing the correct thing. but i'm tired of moving first. i'm tired of doing everything first. i duuno if i have energy to continue with it. i think i'm on the verge of giving up already. so so so so soooo frustrating.
some one please tell me if i'm doing the right thing. i go to sleep every night having no proper plan in my mind. my brain is totally crowded, crowded with i duuno what. and it's really getting on my nerves if i cant think properly and there's no aim or goal in me. wtf la. i think i'll just drown and die in a longkang. then all my frustration can just fly away. "rest in peace" - heard of the phrase? i hope i do.
and drifting from people i once used to be close to is not exactly a nice feeling. and everything is happening all because of me. all my fault. ALL BECAUSE OF ME! why am i such a fucking piece of shit that i cause sorrow to everyone? cause everyone to lose friends? put everyone in this shithole. i dunno but i just cant seem to communicate with some people like usual anymore. why cant you just change and start concentrating on your work? the a levels are coming and its not like only recently that i've been worrying about you. its your freaking attitude man. change it. dont think you're so big just cuz you just argued with a teacher over the phone. like what the hell man.. its really nothing big. i dun get it why you think its so COOL to do that. c'mon la i've been holding back for damn long alr la. and i'm not the only one. stop that disgusting attitude. its really getting on my nerves. and its not only me.
fuck.
ok well i guess the past few days have been a rollarcoaster ride. seriously.
maybe some things cant be helped if i turns out this way. oh well. although i do wanna wish you all the best for everything that you do in the future.
i dunno. somehow, i just cant think of anything to blog. i'm so confused about everything. i cant study properly too. its so frustrating on one end, but yet so sweet on the other end.
maybe i should just bury myself in books and mug till kingdom comes.
but yet it is so tempting to put down everything and spend the day drifting into wonderland, with that dreamy smile on your face.
i bet i'm the only one in the class who has studied this little.
i've only finished 4 topic of chem as of now. it happens everrryday.
simone wakes up. simone tells herself what to study today. simone becomes very determined to finish all that she has set for herself to finish. simone starts studying. simone falls asleep. simone wakes up and realises that she's fallen asleep. simone gets guilty and studies again, but this time, she already way behind her schedule. simone daydreams again. simone gives up towards the end of the day and goes online. simone slacks online until late at night and finally decides to go to bed.
ok thats my usual day for you. and now you can wonder why i've only done 4 chapters sadly.
siann.. i should stop being full of nonsense and cut the crap. there's still cip this friday, which according to shing, i HAVE signed up for it. but i dont remember. AND WTH! i'm done with my nyaa so why should i still have to go for this cip thing! ARGH!.. ahh but nvm as most of you know, i'm very honest. lol.. so i shall be guai and drag myself to attend the cip.
anw i have no idea what's it about. damnit where's daner?
Love me love me
Say that you love me
Fool me fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me leave me
Just say that you need me
over the hedge just rocks la. lol.
its damn funny and its definitely worth the 8 bucks. a great laugh it is. =)
oh and according to michelle ang, i'm exactly like hammy. well for those who havent watched the show, here is a sneak of how he, (yes HE!! michelle ang damn! whats your problem?)
cute la. he's just cute la. lol although not as cute as the baby porcupines which i cant seem to find any picture on them. damnit. nvm..
alright everyone. mug hard. yay! although i am already screwed for the mid years.