i'm starting to be scared of going to school.
and the stress is taking over!
from morning.
till night.
i think i'm going crazy.
it's 2 weeks till 8th may!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
i think i believe people too easily.
i get dragged down into a pit so easily that when i'm left there alone i cant find my way out. and with that, i'm left stuck in that hole for the next few days until i find my way out.
and i never learn.
i wish i could stop thinking, i wish i could just put everything aside and concentrate on mugging. but i guess not.
it's not easy to hide, even though i want so much to.
that weakness. damn i wish i could get rid of it.
i tell people i'm scared. but once a part of me has migrated, i dont see any way to pull it back to myself until knives come along and attempt to cut it up.
but yet i'm so willing to let it go.
what to do. so hard, so hard. i'm confused.
someone please point me in the right direction.
i wish i dared to, i wish i was never - i cant decide which one i would like the genie to grant right now.
screw it.
i'm so confused with myself i dunno what to do anymore.
study study study. but i just cant keep my mind off things.
and german is just not making things better, with the semester test on monday and only 4 days to study, the amount of stuff i gotta memorise and understand is just so pissing me off.
screw the exams. i dun wanna study anymore. nothing can get in anyway and my cap's so gonna drop this sem.
wtf -
exhaustion and frustration;
you know, when you dun even have enough energy left to cry anymore.