scamp, went past with a swish. i would say i did enjoy it , but i guess my freshman year of scamp was definitely more fun since i was playing all the games and more involved. with no group of freshies to take care of this year, i wonder sometimes, if it's a pro or a con.
i still cant make up my mind. but thankfully i have sow to make up for it.
but i would still say that scamp has given me an incredible group of people that are as crazy as me, and as playful as me. i love these 5 people - white stuff. they were always there to make the situation fun, make the situation less stressful. my fellow ohls.
and my house. love these gangsters. hahaha but truthfully, if it werent for them. ohls would have been nothing.
so many of us, the camera obviously couldnt catch the people behind. but it's ok. at least we had the entire group inside. so heartwarming. everytime i look at these pictures, i just cant help but smile.
i wonder. how it feels for those seniors. my seniors last year. how it feels for them as they watch their freshies grow up and become seniors themselves. isnt it like a mother watching her child grow up and letting her child free. might be exaggerating. but it's a really nice feeling isnt it? i definitely wouldnt deny it myself.
thanks to alan for giving me the best partner ever. at least we worked together smoothly, without any large arguments whatsoever. and as i look forward to sow for us partners to step up again, i take my current situation and think hard.
i don't know when i'll be ready. perhaps much sooner than i think, looking at the way things are going now. but then again, the tortoise din sprint to the finish line either. as i slowly figure out how things go, i know - i finally know what i want now. ((:
do you?
nicholas teo, but most people know him as zhang dong liang (taiwanese artiste). i'm too lazy to find his photos and upload them here. but he's a really great singer. i love listening to his songs. everytime i feel like i'm in such a crap mood, or i'm totally a goner. all i have to do is to listen to his songs. and his voice and the tune will just make me smile no matter where i am. i guess this is the magic to being a great singer, making your fans/listeners smile whenever they listen to your songs. haha ----- plus he's cute.
oh well. scamp's over. now for the next series of fop events. cant wait for them? not really. i can wait for them. of cuz - i wouldnt want school to start so quickly would i?
Bittersweet
you're gonna be the death of me
I dont want you, but I need you,
I love you and I hate you at the very same time
((:
You're be in my heart - Phil Collins
Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry
For one so small,you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
scamp - being a house leader is seriously not easy.
definitely not, esp when you have to go against people like alvan.
i realised. the past few days, i learnt to accept myself, i learnt who i was. and i realised what i had to do. it was hard, at first. the feeling of rejection, the feeling of failed hope. i felt like i had let alan down, let my house down, and most importantly, let my fellow ohl down. muslim, yingfeng. thankfully they were there to let me realise why i was in this for, why i accepted the post.
i guess it's about that time, where we learn to grow up, learn about ourselves, approach problems with solutions instead of just thinking and whining over un-doable stuff. i think i need to learn to face people with less fear in my heart, ignore what they think of me.
i hope by scamp. i'll be ready. and that prep camp was a learning experience for me. speaking and leading an entire house. i'll be grateful to alan for giving me this chance. letting me learn, letting me grow up, and letting me know who are the people around me, who will be there for me when i need them the most.
playing a race with 3 contestants, i draw a clear line between the winner, loser and the middle person. at least now i know what i'm looking for, and what i can start to accept.
looking back, is painful. but i think it has made me more firm. firm in what i dont want to experience anymore. maybe apologies, and effort might be put in. but it probably is too late.
i'm so tired. i dunno how to phrase my sentences anymore. my brain has shut down.
but i just love to say that tai tai training sessions with julianne and jiamin are to die for. i will never stop loving these girls.
i'm finally done with my work at the world book fair. lol.. i shall be truthful and say that it wasnt really a nice job to have. i mean, nothing can really beat espn. haha
but i'm sure glad to have met many many cute children. and some interesting people. haha
and there's this boy. his dad's an artist. a professional artist.
and i shall wait for his son, whose 4 years old. :D
he's the cutest ever. and his name is so damn unique -- addison, pronounced edison.
and i 've decided. i shall name my son, addison, chinese name yu zhe
HAHA
spas-ness. but this girl is damn pretty too. although she refuses to tell me whats her name and her age.
look at her eyes. arent they pretty?
i think i'm getting rather obsessed with cute kids haha. thankfully my job ended so i wont get too addicted to them. lucky parents they have.
so, it' 2 days left. 1 and a half more rather. till prep camp. and then it's the start of fop season.
maybe i dont really want it to start. cuz we'll all be playing so hard we'll forget that school's gonna reopen when it ends. damnit.
it's a chess game.
i hope, as time goes on, that a 3 player chess wont be invented.
haha, but i wonder. will playing black be the same as playing white?
k with shing 2mr. i cant wait. i miss k-ing with her. hahaha. then it's off to prep.
as i look at the twirling circle of colours in front of me,
i start to realise
the things in my life
that i don't want to lose.
What You Got
Colby O'Donis
And I like the way you take advantage of every man you love
I see, I seem to know your game girl
But I don't mind if ya come and play ya thug just don't talk too much
I see, I see it so you don't have to say a word
Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you're sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin' on the spotlight
Always in the club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop