time. what a chore this thing is.
the elections of science club are on going. and all everyone talks about these days are just about the nominations and elections. and sometimes, the tension can be felt from the way people speak. friendships form and some break apart. and as i stand in the middle, sometimes as a way of communication, or a way for information, the tension piles on me as well.
why?
zihan running for president, seriously isnt a really HUGE like earth threatening issue. and in fact i'm not even intending to gun for any position in scmc. but why do i feel like i've been pull into this hurricane. everything that affects him seems to pass right thru to me, like the full blown kind of hit. and then sucks all the energy out of you as you try so hard to keep things the way they are.
people say the line between friendships and relationships blur out. but in situation has let me see where i really see myself standing. i no longer see unbiasly already. how hard i try to make myself see both sides of the situations, as both problems seem to dawn on me. i cannot help but feel helpless and lost.
what can i do?
which side do i help?
why does it hurt so much when i have to tell the truth?
why does it rain when it has nothing to do with me?
the world turns and turns around so fast, time flies like nobody's business. but why does it seem to stand still when you're not around.
i keep thinking. i know i shouldnt. i know i cant. but it just keeps coming into my mind. it's only the beginning. but yet i seem already weak and vulnerable. looking at connecting things hoping desperately for a spark.
i have to put this down. i need to put everything down and study. with 5 modules left now after dropping german, i know my timetable is rather slack. i know i need to study and do better this sem.
but.
i think all the time, especially when you're not there. but sometimes i let my mind go, and then i wonder if it's the same on the other side of the mountain. i know it is, but somehow i just cannot convince my heart what my brain thinks. but i know perfectly the reason why--
time. there's no time. not enough time for everyone to do what they want to do.
from a extravagant 24 hours to just almost 30mins. i'm starting to feel the loss. i know complaining about this will make things just go worse. but really, i have to be determined and do something for myself. at least make it through the year.
make myself busier, take part in more stuff, study more etc...
and be there whenever winter hits the other side of the mountain.
and hope that i'll get more warmth from there once in awhile.
and so school starts,
as time lessens from 24 hours to just a mere 4 hours, i have learnt to appreciate what i have. and not take it for granted.
the lesser the time, the better it is.
isnt it always like that?
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i feel the sunshine
when you kiss me goodbye
so sow has ended, along with rag and flag.
sow was great, but tiring. and it came along with a fantastic experience, definitely allowing me to learn so many new things and how to handle things.
and so, thats my og. surprisingly, i'm very proud of the way they slack hahaha!
on to more important things, school is starting on monday and this is the end of a rather quick 3 months holiday. i guess it's time to really study hard and mug like crazy to pull cap up. as for running for scmc, or joining any subcomms, i'm stil uncertain. with 6 modules and study time. i'm not sure whether i can pull off my time to handle things well.
sometimes things change really quickly in a way thats unexpected. but i guess the only thing i can do now is to watch, wait and see what happens. thankfully there's one module there to save me. so as school starts, i'll probably only look forward to mondays at 6.
for og flag, and for 2nd best flagging og, and for rag. nothing that i want to say can be put in words as how i would like to describe the feelings. but people who were there. we all know how it feels. it's now for rag09 - we shall win back the chancellor shield!!
if i could reach, higher
just for one moment touch the sky
iloveyou
capture me. again.
i'm always so lazy to blog.
there's nothing much. basically camps camps and more camps.
there was sow prep, and now half of sow's over. it was fun, i'll say. having your own bunch of freshies. they were a lively bunch, morale still high even when they lost. so proud of them.
i'll post photos when i get them. or maybe it'll be more accessible from facebook. haha
basically, there's pretty nothing much to blog about! school's starting and i guess i'll take singapore film for my SS module. hope it goes well. but at least i got ju to help me.
sometimes i guess we all just gotta learn to grow up and accept that changes are happening in their lives.
and stop being the baby that you are
lovenanas ((: