29/07/2009 @12:56:00 AM
it's not that i'm not having fun at internship.
it's not that i find my work boring, or that there's no one to talk to at work.
you're always busy somewhere else.sometimes, i feel that when i go to school, i feel both happy and sad.
happy to see the people i know i can be myself with,
but it sucks to feel totally off from the world.
updates happen. but thats all that does. people are busy with their own things, and most barely have time to talk you.
people you had fun with just less than one month ago totally disappear from your life, and you never know how they're doing now.
i went back to school today to do rag. and despite feeling whole again, i felt worse after coming home. esp knowing that people will be at sow the next few days, barely having time to talk to you.
i guess i really gotta go find people whom i can feel whole again with. with whom i can meet regularly and not take so much effort just to plan.
but somehow. there just seems to be no one. and it gets worse when school starts, and people start leaving singapore for sep.
i need to get used to this. anw, i'll be graduating in 1 year. it'll probably be the same issue then. thats why i need to get over this now.
don't go away.but for now, i wish there was someone there i could talk to, someone who will be with me all this way.
like fat hope this would happen.
14/07/2009 @10:37:00 PM
fuck i lost my thumbdrive.
i can't find it at home, and i think i lent it to someone but i cant rmb who.
if not i think it dropped out.
the last time i rmb having it was...... during scamp i think.
i wonder if it lost it then. but i don't think so?
it's an orange and white thumbdrive. T.T my dad's so gonna kill me. he kinda just bought it.
OMGYOUARESODEADSIMONELEE.
05/07/2009 @10:33:00 PM
scamp ended on a high note, and i'm glad for that.
this experience will forever remain with me, in my heart. how much this has taught me, the friends it has given me, the feeling of achievement when you see happy faces breaking through everyone's faces at the end.
it's so hard to explain, but i'd give anything to experience that again.
and surprisingly, i miss everything. i feel weird now, not being filled with things to do. so empty that i even feel bored online. i miss scamp, and i miss scamp comm.
oh my love, it's you that I dream of oh my love, since that day somewhere in my heart I'm always dancing with you in the summer rain doesn't matter what I do now doesn't matter what I say somwhere in my heart I'm always dancing with you in the summer rain work has started. as much as i would say it's boring now. the office is undergoing renovation and i gotta deal with situations such as not having a laptop, sitting in front of my boss, and facing dust particles constantly surrounding me everywhere, i don't have a fixed place to sit and i have to wear smart casual to work!!!
but other than that, i'm quite sure my job allows me to learn something different from my other friends. well, hopefully thats the case.
2mr will be the start of the 2nd week. well, here goes nothing!
every night and every day now though I know you've gone away somewhere in my heart I'm always dancing with you in the summer rain